24 Hours

In 24 hours I’ll be in court.

Divorce Court.

Dissolving our marriage.

Saying goodbye.

Goodbye to over 20 years of marriage. Over 30 years of out relationship.

It is a bit mind blowing.

But it is also right.

I’m going to get my hair and nails done. I’m not walking into that courthouse looking like some sad-reject of a woman. I’m walking in and standing tall. Giving the appearance of someone ready for this. And appearances count.

Appearance counts for me. For my self esteem. So it is worth it.

After court I have a couple calls to make. Then I’m turning off my phone for the weekend. Gonna spend the weekend with a couple friends. Think we will take in a Tigers game Saturday night. Not quite sure what else is gonna happen but it will all work out.

I’m not feeling optimistic but more … resigned and accepting of the fact of life at this moment. Just get through minute by minute. I’ll be ok.