Childhood

I was brought back to my childhood today.

When Jesus Christ superstar toured in Detroit my parents went to see it and they did not take me. I was told I was too young and would never understand it.

They did bring home the album and within days I knew every word and could explain every song and and story.

My parents were dismayed but what I didn’t understand was this was a night out for them; they didn’t take many.

As consolation the next summer we went to see Godspell.

It was the first theater that I remember seeing.

I was mesmerized.

Anyone who knows me knows that I am not a tremendously religious person. I don’t disagree with the general principles of Christianity but I disagree with the general people of Christianity.

Today I happened to put in the movie Godspell.

I was instantly transported to that first experience of my childhood and while I remain in disagreement with the general people of Christianity; I appreciate the principles of the Gospels.

From the first moment of the movie (which I have seen many times) I was transported. I felt the things that I had felt as a young child.

I felt instant joy and a sense of instant faith.

It was rather wonderful.

Something I wish I could feel all the time but pragmatism gets in the way.

The innocence of faith and the innocence of youth are rather wonderful qualities that I fear I have lost forever.

I might wish different but it will never be so and that’s OK.

I doubt that I am alone in this wishful, innocent desire.

But again, it is OK.

Who I am is very much based on moral principles and the basic tenants of Christianity.

I can enjoy things like Godspell for what it is.

And I can wish for the innocence of youth even if I no longer have it.

It was a melancholy yet joyful moment

I hope to hold onto it.

Tomorrow when I go to work I will greet my work-wife and I will ask for a hug because I will need one.

Not because I’m sad but because I need reaffirmation.

And in her I will get it.

Peace be with you.