Birthdays

In under 2 hours I m 53 years old.

This is not an enjoyable thought for me.

Others are older.

So very many are younger

I have never had a good time with my birthday. Honestly …. I’m that woman who wants you to fukking remember it but assure me I do NOT look it.

I hate that about myself.

I want to be all chill. Like … no biggie … that’s what I want … but it’s not who I am.

I hate getting older. Especially now. Time is running out. And I know it.

I’m not young. Im not sexy. I know this. Just older.

Closer to 60. Ughhhh.

Oh well …. bring it on!!