Let me say that the word TWAT is one of my all-time favorite affectionate insults. It is also one of my all-time less than affectionate insults. In this case, I am applying to to myself in BOTH contexts.
I am so irritated at all the emotions and feeling that I keep having this past week. I feel I should be past all this. I read through my past week’s posts and I sound so dam self-centered; narcissistic even.
I hate it. I can’t seem to stop obsessing though…and I hate that.
I am NOT THE ONLY ONE TO EVER GO THRU A DIVORCE! DAMMIT!
I admit, I didn’t know I was/am/are/is angry. I still feel that. As 15 said last night “Ruth, I would like to introduce you to your emotions.” He wasn’t being sarcastic or an asshole. He was just trying to make me understand that maybe I have avoided some of these feelings and maybe, just possibly, I should get to know them a bit so I can properly deal with them.
He is right. I know.
I am sincerely hoping, in the upcoming days and after Friday, I will be able to pull myself together, get my head out of my feelings and ass and get on with the business of taking care of business.
So apologies to anyone who has slogged through my posts over this past week. I will get it together, I know it.
Two more days.
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