And a long story short… I am not good enough for my husband and I am not good enough for my best friend.
My best friend thinks I am selfish, horrible, thoughtless; basically s cunt. but she is too much of a prig to use that word.
At this point I am simply trying to get through the evening. Tomorrow is a new day.
I am also trying to understand her point of view. To dredge up empathy that I would normally feel for anyone who has that much anger inside of them.
While I know she is wrong in so many ways, her virulent diatribes have me doubting myself.
She says I have always done exactly as I wanted to do. And when I try to explain that so much of what I have wanted and desired has been held inside… Compressed into a tiny box, well she calls bullshit.
And now I find I’m at am impasse… And I’m lost again.
How can this woman who knows me so well… Be wrong? Yet she is!. God is she?.
Ruth's Life and Experiences 
Of course she is. lol! What an awesome statement–“You always have done what you wanted to do!” You have lived your life in a way that has demonstrated love, caring and concern for those around you. The Golden Rule is “Love God, and love your neighbor AS YOU LOVE YOURSELF!” Now, it is time for you to love yourself as much as you have cared for those around you. I am certain that there were many times when you sacrificed those things you may have wanted for the needs/wants of others. There are so many people who KNOW the wonderful things you have done and, more importantly, the wonderful person you ARE. Remember that love isn’t always the reward for your actions. WE ALL deserve to be loved because of who we are–not necessarily for what we do for others.
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