Expectations!

OK, so Thanksgiving didn’t go exactly as I planned.  I had NO idea that, in order to deliver food, serve food or do anything with the homeless/home-bound or whatever on Thanksgiving Day…you have to sign up in like…July!    I was bereft of something to do.

Providence stepped in.

One of my friends tried to get healthy.  She started a high fiber diet.  She landed in her local hospital with diverticulitis and a partial bowel obstruction.  I drove on down to visit her.  It was really nice.  While I didn’t have the opportunity to do something for the “community” I was able to do something for MY community.

See…I can be positive!

Dinner was odd.  the food was good and I really cannot complain.  Dinner was odd because I didn’t make it.  And I really wasn’t any part of it.

I know that I am not the only one to be separated.  I also know that there are others who probably handled it better or who handle it worse.  I am not .. like .. SAD.  I would say I am more melancholy.  I’m more likely to cry over the dogs I miss than DH.  And so, that leads me to… I am confused.  Aren’t I suppose to feel horrible about this whole thing?  Aren’t I suppose to be crying and beating my breast about this?  Depression…thy name shouldst be RUTH!  And yet…I feel rather positive.  I feel like I am moving forward.

I opened up a new checking & savings account.  I have transferred 1/2 of our credit card debt to my new cards.  If I buckle down then I should have both my car and the credit cards paid off in 13 months.  It won’t leave me a lot of extra (or even, a little extra) cash.  I’ll be on a strict budget…but that is OK.  I can do this for one year!  By this time next year I should be credit card debt free and my car will be free and clear.  Ok, by this time plus 1.5 months…but still.  Ya know what I mean.

I haven’t had my own checking/savings/credit card in over 20 years!  It feels odd.  Other than desperately needing my hair done and a freakin’ pedi…it feels really good.  I’ll get my hair done and a pedi in 13.3 months.  till then, there are ponytails and nail clippers and foot files.

Onto a new day!