Missing you…whoever you are.

I miss people.

I miss my people, strangers, loved ones, family…everyone.  I just miss people.

Now I am not sad and crying here.  I guess just wistful.

There are people I would see at work, daily, and it was wonderful talking to them. I don’t say that as a “hindsight is 20/20” kind of thing.  I looked forward to spending a few minutes talking to some people every day.

I am also the kind of person who generally smiles when walking down a hallway and often get quick smiles or hellos from strangers.  I am the kind of person who will stop and offer help to the many lost souls often seen walking the halls of my hospital with a map and a frown.

I go to restaurants and chat with people in line or at another table.  Not incessantly but I’m not shy either.

And when I had my dog I talked to him all the time and cuddled and played.

Now the silence is deafening.  Yes I can put on music or a movie and listen.  of course I can do that.  But after a while it all just melds together anymore.

Some of my friends have started Zoom groups and that can be fun.  I need to figure out how to get it running properly on my computer though.  And also, how much time can you spend talking about something new…when nothing at all is really new?

On Feb 21 it will be one month since I lost Oberon.  It seems like yesterday but I know better.  And while that loss is extremely painful it isn’t a persistent pain anymore.  I have been thinking about getting a new dog but it feels almost like a betrayal.  I know it isn’t.  If Oberon were a person he would say go out and find a new person.  I know this.  I was so patient waiting for Oberon to be in my life but I feel less patient now. And that feeling often gets me in trouble.  So I am trying.  I think my lack of patience stems from the solitude.

So get right with the world now.  Practice patience.  Stay safe and stay home.

So for all you, out there, whoever you are…I miss you!