Life

I just learned of the death of two friends of mine.

Kathy… Estranged, so selfish, self absorbed, so kind at unexpected moments… Gone from lung cancer she was in her 60s.

My girlfriends husband… Gone from renal cancer within six months. I didn’t even know this was a problem because my girlfriend and I are not super close anymore.

Memorial service to attend on Friday.

I am grieving.

I am grieving the loss of history.

I am grieving the loss for my girlfriend.

Part of this makes me afraid of my own mortality.

Which makes me terribly selfish and I note.

But I still cry!

And so a memorial service to attend on Friday.

Stand strong for my friend. Her loss is the important loss. Mine is just memories.

God. Both of them gone so young.