Got a Call

So. At a very interesting time (for me) of Saturday I received a call from mom

She finally asked if s DH and I were ok…

I was actually in a very happy place with 15 and JJF.

Kinda looking looked around the room and politely told he “That’s really none of your business”.

She then told me “I hope you two are alright” and we kindly ended the call.

I know she will need to be told about the divorce sooner or later. And she will never believe I am happy.

I feel like … weirdly… I won’t be able to say I accept who I am … how I am … until I tell her how I really am.

But I don’t know if that is selfish. Thoughtless. Cause I know she will be upset. How I am. Who I am will cause her pain.

I feel that telling her … about me … would only cause her pain. And hence selfish. The only one it would serve is a myself. Selfish.

But then … if I am less than honest is this causing myself … injury. My self. My soul. I don’t know.

I think this will take a bit of thinking.

Probably some therapy.

Gonna have to be pro thru this. A bit.