Saturday

Couple of things giving me a bit of a stomach ache this morning.

Have a party today and I had invited 15. He initially said yes but then cancelled this morning, politely. I feel like this is a test from the universe. As I said earlier this week. Someone cancelling or declining an invitation is on them. It isn’t a rejection of me. And I do believe that. It does NOT mean I don’t feel some anxiety over it. But I do accept it and will just work to find peace in my brain. Not easy but it’s ok.

Have dropped by to see my mom. She isn’t answering the door or the phone. Now… I do mean dropped by. I didn’t give her warning. She isn’t expecting me. But that’s how I needed to do this… for me. I’m not upset she isn’t answering: In the sense of disappointment in her. I do wish I had been able to see her. Currently sitting outside the building and giving it a bit of time. I’ll try again in a short bit. But if she doesn’t answer after that then I’ll go home.

I suppose today is just going to be a day to get thru. Lessons to learn in my life and working thru personal ( but certainly not devastating disappointment) These are things to understand and not to over react to.

On the plus side…it’s another beautiful day and I didn’t wake up dead! So all in all…winning.

Edit: mom called. Told her I had stopped by. Short conversation. I’ll try again. Later in the day though.

Sitting at the party. Alone in a roomful of friends. Smiling face on. Ahhh well. That’s me.