How are you? I’m fine, thank you.
You doing ok? I’m fine, thank you.
How are you? I’m fine.
Are you doing ok? I’m fine.
I heard this 100 times today.
And while I was fine… by the end of the day I wanted to hurt someone… most likely myself.
WTF does someone expect me to say at a high school grad party?
Having a hard time. Feel like a failure. Feel so alone my insides hurt. Wish I could just die in my sleep because then I wouldn’t have to summon the courage to get out of bed every fukking day!
Yes I have good times. But at the end of the day/ night/weekend… I’m alone again with me.
So people… I’m fine. That’s all you are gonna get because I cannot stand the pain of saying how I feel.
I’m supposed to be strong. Im supposed to be right with everything. Im supposed to stand up and say “I’m great and no one can bring me down “. Wanna know who can bring me down? Me, myself & I.
So people … I’m fine. I’ll get up. I’ll go to work. I’ll be what you expect. But stop asking how I am. Cause I’m fine. That’s all I can give you.
Ruth's Life and Experiences 