What would have happened if I had turned right…instead of left?
Where would I be if I had ignored things instead of confronting them? And of course…the inverse is a reasonable question as well.
What if I had decided not to say anything to DH…again…and just kinda duck and cover…for the past 11 months? What would my life be like now? Would I have ever got my head out of the sand? Would DH?
What would I be doing if I had decided to just close off…instead of forcing myself to be open to new possibilities? I will say…I bet I would have got a lot more crochet done.
Would I have gone back to DH … out of a sense of loneliness and fear? Would I have ever been able to look at myself in the mirror and NOT cringe? I don’t cringe now. I may have pieces and parts I’m less than thrilled with…but I don’t cringe!
Obviously…these are all rhetorical questions… but I suspect I know the answer to some of them anyway.
I suspect … had I taken a slightly easier road…I might be back with DH. I wouldn’t have forced myself to become independent. I would have, and probably still would be, trying to live up to someone else’s ideal. And failing miserably!
I might have found some happiness … but likely at work…and buried in my work. Personally I suspect I would have remained unhappy and sad.
Not trying to be … pessimistic … but lets face it … likely true
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