So…

A bit antsy and anxious.  And this particular feeling got me thinking…I need to STOP being anxious all the dam time.

Ok..so right now…whatevah!  BUT…

Seriously.  I apologize ALL the DAM TIME! Practically apologize for breathing sometimes.  Something happens to someone and “I’m sorry” comes out of my mouth.  People look at me like “Ummm..You didn’t have anything to do with that 10 foot alligator that ate gramma…why are you apologizing?”

If I am in someone’s way…physically…I will automatically defer to their movements and apologize for being there.

If someone bumps into ME…due to thoughtless or negligent movements…guess who is apologizing!

All this plays into my stupid anxieties and I think it is a VERY bad habit.  If it were ONLY a habit then…I might say…who cares.  But since it truly feeds my whole “I’m not really worthy of being here and breathing the same air as you” thing I seem to have going on…it IS a problem.

OK.  I am gonna work on this.

Quit with the apologizing (unless there really IS something to apologize for…like stepping on your toes or smacking you in the face when I turn over…those are OK apology times!)