Tulips

The spring flowers are coming out…I want to warn them…It is only April…beware!

Anyway, I pass a set of tulips every morning and I notice some are in full glorious bloom and others…barely peeking out of their…shell (?).  Got to wondering.  When I look at the various stages of bloom on those flowers … I wonder … Where am I?

Am I the flower that is bloomed and within a few more days will lose the petals?  Am I sort of .. just getting my start?  Barely peeking my nose out?  Am I almost ready to bloom or… You get the picture.

It is just a stray thought that stayed with me as I climbed the stairs and got into my office.  So while I am following the flower thought… What kind of a flower am I anyway? Spring bulb?  They pop up and are glorious but are gone so fast.  Sunflower? to turn and follow the sun.  Vine flower like Morning Glory? Climbing up and reaching out to other ledges

Odd thoughts this morning.

Today is my favorite day of the week.  Wednesdays I get the office to myself.  It IS busier b/c my partner is off work and I cover her but the office is all mine.  Then after work I go home and change and head down to Toledo to meet some friends for the evening.  Thursdays kinda stink because I don’t get home till WAY late/early.  But it is worth it.

Doing squats challenge and just started pushups.   Up to 120 squats yesterday and 20 pushups.  Today I am staying w/the 120 squats.  I also did a TON of stairs and my thighs feel like jello.

As of Monday I am down 57 pounds.  And that makes me VERY happy…until I get undressed!  GAH.  My thighs look like…well.  Lets just say UGH.  I know that under there is a lot of muscle and I climbed 5 flights of stairs yesteray without pausing or needing to stop to take a deep breath.  That is GOOD.  Am VERY proud of myself.  But I do strongly dislike all the extra/flabby and frankly ugly skin on my thighs, under my chin and arms.  Just putting it out there.  Weight loss is GOOD but there are also things to consider when you lose the weight.  And the body image you wish to attain…that is the ideal in your head…may not be attainable.  Doesn’t mean I’m changing my plan or anything.  I’ll survive with this and frankly I’ll thrive in many ways.  But it sure does make me less willing to get nekkid!