Ok. So this upcoming weekend I have a birthday party for a young man (14y)
I took a risk. I asked my UK-Monday-night (UK for short) to go with me. Now UK and I have been seeing each other for about 6-7 weeks. It started out VERY just…sex. And we both clearly stated this was all we want. But we really enjoy each other’s company. I typically see him Monday nights and stay with him till work on Tuesday.
So a couple weeks ago, in post-coital laughter and play, he just sort of nabbed my shoulders and said “I love you”. I believe he saw the absolute panic in my face and he gave me a hug and said just said he really likes being with me and he loves my attitude. I get it.
Who would have thought that anyone saying “I love you” would make me want to run for the hills? and i did want to run. I didn’t run though and I am happy about that. He is a good man. He is a gentleman in many ways. And…kinda not so much in the bedroom… which is perfect. He is well aware of my history and… current activities… and he likes spending time with me anyway.
So now UK stated “I would like to meet your friends.” AFTER I sent him a babbling text about coming with me to the party, or not, depending on how he felt…and I swear it was a schitzo text!
So NOW I have all week to stress about this. He isn’t DH. Will my friends like him? Do I care? I mean, should I care? I don’t think so but then how many times have I met someone’s “other” and didn’t like them and then never said anything and watched them get hurt. And, oh yes, worried about the hurt thing. I really did NOT anticipate meeting someone I would WANT to see outside of the bedroom…for like… maybe NEVER.
OK Get on with the day. Breathe…it’s only Tuesday! gah!
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