Acceptance or Denial?

I have been wondering, over the past few weeks, why I feel so calm and relatively good.

Yes, my life is a bit of a mess…but I am working toward straightening it out. I am taking positive steps toward the future.  I am trying to be optimistically realistic.  The glass isn’t quite half full but it sure ain’t half empty…ya know?

So I also wondered…since I AM feeling quite good and healthy of mind…am I really doing well or am I just living in denial???  I mean… if I am living in denial would I even know it? Would I not feel the same sort of…happy/positive attitude?  So how can I tell the truth of it?  Is me, just asking if I am in denial, proof that I am not???  Or is it just more delusion?

This is hurting my brain!