Big girls…can’t cry!

Met with DH last night and ironed out some financial responsibilities.

We have a very good base and have an agreement to re-assess the information in January 2019 again.

I think we were both fair.

I can’t cry.

I left the dinner, last night, thinking only positive/moving forward thoughts.  And about 15 minutes into my drive I began to wonder…why aren’t I crying?  What is going on?  I am feeling OK…

This morning I wrote out our financial agreement and sent it onto Steve.

I can’t cry.

Went to talk with a colleague about everything and I was as dry eyed as it is possible to be; no nose twinges or sniffles.  No need for even a tissue dab…

Then she asked about my dogs and I almost melted down.

Now I love my dogs! No denying that fact.  But my 20+ year marriage is falling apart and I am thinking positively!  Missing my dogs…I’m a weepy mess.  Don’t I miss my husband? I think I should!  I mean, I think of him often and wonder how he is.  I call or txt or email him.  But I think of my puppies and I’m very sad.

I don’t know if this is normal!